For most that are not affected by this, you wouldn't know but for those that are, we are well aware of the struggle with trying to find something to wear. My plastic surgeon doesn't want me to lift my arms past what we call "T-Rex" arms. So it's button-up shirts or super baggy t-shirts that you can stretch the hell out of for me.

I was tested for BRCA prior to getting pregnant with my son as a precaution because of my family history (Mother and Aunt both had breast cancer). It came back negative which makes you feel a little better, but boom 7 years later here I am.. They can't detect a genetic link and no reason behind it at all and no explanation to the lengthy family history.

Survivor: the remainder of a group of people or things; a person who copes well with difficulties in their life. This word, the reason I hate going to a doctor I haven’t seen since I was diagnosed,  the reason I don’t want to explain to people what I’m healing from. The guilt I have for even using the word. Take for example tonight I decided to wear this shirt to bed, it’s been in my closet since the day of the breast cancer walk because I don’t believe I’m worthy of it.

I don't think we can ever prepare ourselves for a cancer diagnosis or any other devastating bad news, but I have to credit my investment into personal development and self-love in helping navigate through this time in my life.  You see, 3 years ago I was struggling with my self-esteem, the lack of success on getting pregnant and the blame game on why my life wasn't were I wanted it to be. I had to take a hard look in the mirror and realize that I was sabotaging my own life. Since that day that I decided to take control of my life and make the necessary changes required to move forward and I haven't looked back.